24 October 2012
I drove today. To the theater and back. I didn’t plan right. The emotional disturbance from looking thru all those papers had really gotten to me. I slept away the entire day away.. I didn’t go to bed until I was finished going through it. I put the bed up against the wall and took all the bins…and emptied them out onto the floor in my room.
That is more or less what it looked like. I started working on it at 1345 Tuesday. It wasn’t until 4AM this morning that I finished. Next weekend (after Halloween) I am going to take it all to a burn-pile. I have to release it and be freed from it.. I can’t wait for it to be removed from my existence.
On another note, I did go to Tai Kwon Do and then to my call-back. I got called-back for the Sound of Music at a local theater. That should be fun. When I got up there, I completely forgot all the words to the music. I have it memorized even now, but something happened when he started the music. I just completely blanked on it. I had to ask for the lyrics.
Then again, the rest of the audition went fairly well. I couldn’t focus in Tai Kwon Do either..and then trying to converse with my friend after class, I simply couldn’t collect the words right. I close off emotionally every time I am around him. I also avoid eye-contact for the most part. Why do I do that?
I got an unpleasant call from my doctor also. My HPV may have developed.. It’s too bad, really. One year of poor, poor choices.. *sigh*
Now it’s only the rest of my life I’ve got to deal with. =\
I miss my sister. ❤