12 January 2013

Who am I?  Who am I today?  This intensely sorrowed person…this deeply troubled person.  Who am I today?  Why feel so paralytically stunted from any kind of forward movement?  Why do I feel so lost? So worthless?  What it is I am missing when it comes to the bigger picture of my dreams and talents?  I have about two months to figure it out; or maybe a bit less, really.  It is amazing how upset you can be by simple things when your heart isn’t in the right place that it should be.  How quickly we can become inflexible!  I can feel the depression of the allure of averageness…  I can feel the draw of the morose feeling of susceptibility to “the plan.”  The ever-pulling gravity of a droning, mindless and comfortable illusion.